It’s been a while since I’ve done a book review! That’s certainly not for a lack of reading, it’s still by far one of my favorite past times, but more because I read for fun and consider reviews to be work. However, when it comes to this book, I felt it was incredibly relevant to my blog and felt I had to share her story with my readers.
Just a week or so ago a girl on my coaching team posted in our group about her struggle with binge eating. In one of the comments, someone suggested this book as having been a great comfort to them and might be helpful to her. As someone who has struggled with emotional eating and binge eating since I can remember, I quickly ordered it from Amazon. Normally I read kindle books either from Kindle Unlimited or get them from the library because, well, $$, but I knew this was the kind of book I needed in my hands and to keep for the future.
It Was Me All Along is a memoir by Andie Mitchell that chronicles her life as an overweight young child to an obese teenager and college student, to losing half her body weight and figuring out what food really meant to her throughout her life.
Here is the synopsis of her memoir from Goodreads:
A young food blogger shares her inspiring story of incredible weight loss–a journey from nearly 300 pounds to losing more than half her size–and establishing a healthy and confident relationship with food.
On her twentieth birthday, Andie Mitchell stepped on the scale and discovered that she weighed nearly 300 pounds. At 5′ 9″–even knowing that she was big and hating herself for it–she was stunned. How had she gotten there? Without following wild diet trends, she lost 135 pounds over thirteen months and has kept it off for six years.
It Was Me All Along shares the at times heartbreaking, yet ultimately uplifting and motivating, story of how Andie kicked her habit of binge eating, which she developed during a traumatic childhood, and developed a healthy relationship with food, which she still loves to cook and enjoy.
Her story is at once familiar and inspiring to millions who have struggled with weight and self-image issues. Andie is a powerful motivator who bravely bares all to help others.
While I definitely can’t relate to much of the things Andie went through in here life, there were so many moments where I felt like she was expressing things that I hadn’t quite pulled out of myself before. Things that I know I felt but hadn’t been able to put into words. The book made me realize that although we all may look different from one another, have different backgrounds and childhoods, and be dealing with different situations in life, underneath we often have very similar things running through our heads. It’s a reminder not to compare ourselves to others because we don’t know what they’re really going through in their minds as well as a reminder not to judge those who seem different from us on the outside because they may be just like us on the inside.
One of the reasons I and so many others relate well to this book is because Andie is so raw and honest throughout her story. She says the things we think but can’t say out loud. She says the things we feel but can’t put into words. The quote above I particularly like because, personally, I feel like I’ve had a great life but for some reason (and I’m learning it’s the distorted thoughts running through my head) I can’t seem to just feel better. We can’t force ourselves to feel better by plastering on a happy face. Sure, that works for a short amount of time, but to really change we have to put in real work and make real changes and those are SCARY. I love that she talks about being sad to give up her binges – yes, they brought her eventual pain, but in the moment there was a feeling of joy, pleasure, and reckless abandon. It may seem crazy to someone on the outside, but we all have things we love in the moment but regret later on.
I loved Andie’s memoir and if you’re someone who has ever dealt with emotion eating (which is a lot of people!) then I highly recommend picking up this book.
What’s a book you’ve read recently that’s really impacted you?