Over Your Oats #19

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Life

5 Tips to Stop Your Mind From Making Mental To Do Lists All Night

Is Your Body Trying To Guide You But Your Just Not Listening?

Personality Test

What To Do When You Eat 2.5 lbs of Nuts In One Sitting

How To Properly Wash Your Face

10 Verses Every Girl Needs To Hear

The Scale

Ridiculous Hard Work

Fitness

7 Minute Barre Squat Burner

Bodyweight Lower Body Workout

Overcoming Running Excuses

I Am Worthy of Happiness Tabata Workout

Food

Kale and Sausage Breakfast Casserole

Bison Stuffed Cabbage

Cinnamon Roll Banana Bread

Breakfast Stuffed Sweet Potatoes

Beer Beef Stew

Thursday Thoughts

1. Uh THANK YOU for all of your sweet comments and support, both on the blog and in social media, on my post Tuesday! You guys are awesome. And remember – always feel free to email me if you are dealing with anything similar and want to talk!

 

2. Um, so did I ever mention that for several months I’ve been writing articles for another blog? Haha in other words I have a second blog… You can check it out here: The Happy Attorney

 

3. My friend in San Francisco, Caroline, sent me this little… what are these called? Oh my gosh ever since I read Still Alice I feel like I have alzheimers. Anyway the best part of her gift was this cute little book full of quotes! Haha I think people know I like quotes… not sure how.

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4. How colorful is my food prep this week? I’m actually already sick of eating this meal… but that’s what I get for not actually planning out recipes and “winging it” for the week.

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5. So I’m on week 2 of Insanity Max 30 and I had one client who got the program to do it with me. Well my “client” has become my virtual friend and biggest motivator throughout this whole program. There’s no way I’d get up and do the workouts every morning if we weren’t constantly messaging back and forth encouraging one another. I already love this girl.

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6. This is me. All day, every day. Haha right now.

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7. Selfie Bloopers!

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8. Have a WONDERFUL Thursday!!!

 

Do you have any funny selfie bloopers on your phone?

Do you think you’re funny?  

What’s the last gift you gave? 

My Health and Weight Struggle

I’ve wanted to write this post for a long time, not only to really explain my story, but also because I keep seeing more and more women who are hurting themselves in the way that I hurt myself and my body. I struggled to sit down and write it, however, because I want to get it right. I feel like I could write for hours but I have to fit what’s most important into one post all while managing to explain myself well. But there’s no time like the present, right? If I’ve learned anything from Beachbody coaching it’s that you’ll never be “ready,” you just have to put yourself out there and go for it.

If you’ve been reading for a while then you’re probably familiar with my story. Like many American women I’ve grown up hating my body. I always felt uncomfortable, out of place and overweight no matter what size I’ve been. I believe this self-hatred is a product of our society – of what we see in media but most importantly what we see from the women around us; the negative self-talk, the pride and envy we base our value on, the emphasis on clothes and looks, and the omnipresent feeling of never being good enough.

When I graduated college back in 2010 I decided I was over feeling like the chubby girl – I was going to take control of my weight, and I did. I started off eating less than 1,000 calories a day and I dropped weight, fast. After a few months of this I leveled out at around 1,200 a day, and after a year I decided to “maintain” at 1400 a day. I kept that up for the rest of law school. And you know what? I thought I was doing everything right. I obsessively watched my calories and worked out anywhere from 1-2 hours a day. Oh, and I trained for a marathon. Obviously marathon training couldn’t be sustained by that low of a calorie intake so the uncontrollable binge-eating began, followed by shaming, restricting and then binging again.

I’d never been so depressed or unhappy in my life than when I was at my smallest weight (mind you I still had a totally normal BMI – NOT a good indicator of health!). What I didn’t know is that by restricting my calories and exercising so much I was telling my body that I was starving. Our bodies aren’t stupid. They’re going to try to stay alive, and try it did by keeping every ounce of fat it could on my body. And you know what? I gained weight. Little by little the weight came on and I freaked out. I felt so helpless and confused. Even when I became a Christian and gave my life over to God, I held on to that one tiny thing: food. Part of me thought I’d accepted myself and I started to work hard on self-confidence and self-love, but really on the inside I was so unhappy with my body. I’d gotten over my issues of perfection but I still kept trying to lose weight.

Eventually I realized exactly what I’d done to myself so I tried to eat more to tell my body it wasn’t starving, but it wasn’t until my doctor told me just a few weeks ago that all my health issues were due to that period of extreme restriction that I fully committed to changing. I started counting my calories to be sure I ate enough and was shocked that I still wasn’t hitting 2,000 calories a day without forcing myself to. It’s so hard to break a mentality that you’ve had for years – but I can and I will do it. Why? I am doing it only for my own health and happiness, but for yours too. I want to be strong, fit and healthy, and I want that for each and every one of you, because through health and fitness you can go for any dream that you have in life.

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FYI, this is me 30 lbs heavier than the photo above.

Every time I see another young girl restricting and over-exercising I just see me. I want to grab them by the shoulders and shake them until they understand what they are doing to themselves. I believe that God gave me this blog and my Beachbody Coaching career to help other women like me. I believe he allowed me to deal with this hurdle to help other women like me, because there are so, so many of us.

I have many, many more things I want to say on this topic, but I’ll have to hold myself back for today; best not to give you all a novel rather than a post. I just want you to know that if you’re reading now and you think you identify with my story, leave a comment. Send me an email. I’m here for you and with you. I know how you feel. I get you. And yes, there is a light at the end of the tunnel.

 

Please feel free to email me at peaceloveandoats@gmail.com if you have questions or just want to talk :)

You can follow more of my personal health and happiness journey on my instagram: @Peaceloveoats

Over Your Oats #18

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Life

10 Things To Stop Doing If You Want To Love Your Body

Caroline’s Five Favorite Books

Overeating

10 Tips To Make Moving So Much Easier

Achieving A Healthy Balance: Stress Management

Things You Should Know

8 Natural Sleep Aids

Kindness Doesn’t Always Scream

Fitness

Three Things You Can Do When You Hit A Plateau

Songs With Lyrics About Running

Are Rest Days Necessary Even If I’m Not Sore or Tired?

No Gym Required Travel Workout

Food

BLT Egg Casserole

5 Ingredient Grown Up Dark Chocolate Tootsie Rolls

Cauliflower Bread Grilled Cheese

Nicole’s Super Soup

No Bake Cookie Dough Balls

Lucky Shamrock Bites

Random/Funny

Derek Zoolander in Valentino Show

Thursday Thoughts

1. Somehow this week is just flying by, and you know what? I’ll take it! Despite the fact that it’s St Patty’s weekend, I don’t have any real plans (other than church & bible study), which I really love. I’ll probably stop by one of the parties I’ve been invited to, but definitely not going all out this year. I’ve got too many other things to do! haha

 

2. You know the one thing I love about daylight savings this time of year? I get to watch the sunrise!!! It’s so crazy pretty – wouldn’t trade this for anything.

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3. And since no one in Chicago can go more than a day without discussing weather, IT IS SO WONDERFUL! We just randomly skipped from 0s-20s up to the FORTIES! And LOW FIFTIES! It’s so wonderful. Everyone is so much happier :)

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4. So I started Insanity Max 30 this week and although I think deep down I’m scared I’ll quit or give up – I think this is going to be awesome. I ran a marathon, I climbed a mountain by myself – I can be stubborn enough to finish this 8-week program, right??

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5. Poor Neville has been totally neglected this winter… I finally changed out his water and cleaned his bowl and he is enjoying the spring as well! Haha for those of you who are new, I bought Neville when I moved to Chicago… 4.5 years ago. Somehow he has survived me as a mom and 5 Chicago winters. He’s a tough fish.

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6. One thing that I love about Beachbody is that there is a coach and a team for everyone. We all attract people who are most similar to us and once I really looked around at the women on my team (Team Inspire Joy), we are all SO SIMILAR! I love it, and them :). Haha so much love today. It’s the weather ;)

 

7.  A Dylan’s Candy Bar just opened right next to my old office. All I have to say is thank goodness I’m not there anymore or this would be bad for my health and my wallet…

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8. Have a great Thursday!

 

 

Do you find you tend to like people who are similar to you? Or similar background/story? 

Sunrise or Sunset?