Nov 2, 2016
This past Sunday I turned 29 years old and since then, several people have asked me how I feel about being in the last year of my 20's, or how I plan to rock out this last year before turning 30. And you know what I realized? I hadn't even thought about the fact that this year is my last year of my 20s because you know what? I don't see a difference between 29 years old and 30 years old. Yes, I'll be moving into a new decade next year, but that doesn't mean a whole lot to me right now.
The funny thing is that the person I was a few years ago would be HYPERVENTILATING right now. I mean freaking out, overwhelmed, and feeling out of control and completely worthless.
Because I'm not where I thought I'd be in life.
Not many of us expect to be single, unemployed and living in their parents' house at the age of 29. But you know what? I'm pretty good with that because every day I'm working to be a good person and be a light in the world, and that's the best that I or anyone else can do.
The old me would feel like I'd become a completely failure and that I HAD to find a good enough job and get married ASAP or I'd be completely wasting my life. So what's changed? Why am I so calm about turning 29 now?
Learning that my life isn't in my own control but in the hands of God has done me a world of good. I no longer believe that I'm a failure in life just because things didn't go as I planned, because I know there's someone out there with a much bigger plan for me, one that I just can't see right now. I no longer feel a need to push myself into situations I'm uncomfortable with just because I think others will approve. I know that I need to trust my instincts and just go with the flow because I know I'm in good hands.
So what I'm going to do with the last year of my 20's?
Keep on growing, pushing myself and working to be the best version of myself I can be. And have a little fun, of course ;)