Aug 3, 2016
You know what compliment I keep receiving?
Nope, I'm not getting married and no, I'm not pregnant. This glow is one that comes from aligning my actions with my true purpose. From spending every day in a job that lights me up and makes me excited to start each morning. I know that God put us all on this earth for a reason and has called us to serve others, each in our own way.
From high school on, I always believed I should follow a clear cut career path, we all do, right? We're asked from an early age, "what do you want to be when you grow up?" Quickly, that question becomes, "what are you majoring in?" and finally, "what jobs are you looking for?" so I studied science, then I went to law school. But you know what? I wasn't happy. Actually, I was miserable and beating myself up for BEING miserable. I should want this, right?
Of course, these are all well-intentioned questions bred from a society that requires us to find our purpose early on in our lives. But to be honest, like so many other young people, I had NO IDEA what I wanted to do. Absolutely no idea. I loved my science classes, so I studied marine biology and it was SUCH a cool major to have but to be honest, I didn't have a clear vision of what to do with it, so, obviously, I went to law school... Again, I really enjoyed my classes, but I by halfway through, I knew I didn't want to be a lawyer.
I wasn't happy. Actually, I was miserable and beating myself up for BEING miserable. I should want this, right? I should WANT to have a high-paying impressive career, right?
Slowly but surely I learned to shut out all the noise and listen to what God was telling me. I followed my heart instead of my head, found a job that I love so much and moved to a place with plenty of sunshine, and guess what?
I just started reading You Are A Badass by Jen Sincero, and simply from the prologue, I knew this book would be full of so many amazing lessons and nuggets. This woman spoke to me and I found myself saying, "YES!"
"I felt like I was going through the motions of living my lukewarm life with the occasional flare-ups of awesomeness here and there. And the most painful part was that deep down I KNEW I was a total rock star, that I had the power to give and receive and love with the best of ‘em, that I could leap tall buildings in a single bound and could create anything I put my mind to… then, doop de do, off I’d go, consumed once again by low-level minutiae, only to find myself, a few weeks later, wondering where those few weeks went and how it could possibly be that I was still stuck in my rickety-ass apartment, eating dollar tacos by myself every night.”
This WAS me - I knew that I was capable of more and I'm just now really starting to acknowledge this reality. I'm finally pushing past my fears of what everyone else might think and really committing 100% to the path that I know I'm meant to be on. Will it be clear and pretty? Of course not. It's going to be HARD work and probably involve lots of exhausted days and tears, but every single one of those days will be completely worth the struggle.
If you look around at your life and realize that you're simply going through the motions rather than fighting for what you really want, take a chance. Dip your toe in or dive in full force - but whatever you do, start moving forward.